7March2014

Many things have been going on lately and it anchors me further into my deep thoughts. Sometimes you'd already have so much on your mind that as days go by, you'd just want to disappear, away from everyone. I don't even understand what is happening to and between us. Really exhausted by everything that has happened. Sigh.
I. Do. Not. Want. To. Care. Anymore.

This year, the last year that I'll be in Innova (hopefully)...

Monday, 20Jan2014

I don't particularly like it when people ask what I'm doing now because all I want to say, is the truth. I want to say that I'm upset with myself, and I dread the time when I have to finally return home because it makes me cry and feel like killing myself. So stop.

Good and happy events! Those are what I'm supposed to be writing here. So basically I just want to congratulate the SP Symphonic Band for putting up such a good performance last night for all of us. :) It's nice to actually be away from the academics part of my life especially when today's the first day of Homecoming Formative Assessment! We were so so surprised to even find out that so many others we know were there as well, even out ex-seniors from a few years ago. It was like a Damaiwindz reunion at Esplanade yesterday! Haha.

So here are some of the photos taken from yesterday! ♡

Sunday, 12Jan2014

First week of school has finally gone by and it was pretty horrible for me.

I blame myself partially for having so many things to be done by this week, because some of them could already be settled if I were to be disciplined enough to diligently finish my homework. Unfortunately, I have piles of assignments to do now!! :(

People I know have been feeling down especially this year after school has started. Reading the tweets they wrote, and how they interact with me showed a lot. (Pss I'm extremely sensitive by nature) It makes me upset just knowing that most of them aren't really happy, and it's not as if I'm not aware of it. It's that I didn't do any thing to make it all better.
I just wish they could at least confide in me, I mean, there's nothing much I can do, except be their listening ears, without knowing what happened.

If any one of you has read this and needs someone there, I'll be with you. I'll listen even if we ain't close friends or even friends. I'll listen if you want it to be a secret drowned in the deep sea. I'll listen if you have no one else to tell them troubles to. I will try my best to be there, but I'll always listen.

HI, STOP BEING UNHAPPY!! I LOVE YOU GUYS AND IT UPSETS ME TO SEE YOU THIS WAY. Cheer up, fellow troubled teenagers ♡

Monday, 6Jan2014

Early in the morning on my first day of school, I cried.

Saturday, 4Jan2014

My first entry of the year! So I shall not talk about sad things, and I should not be talking about any of them here actually. There're two things I really must talk about though, which will be about photographs and contact numbers. Firstly, I no longer photos of anything and anyone from before November 2013 because something happened. Okay let me clarify that I did not delete it!! Even if I wanted to, which I did want to do that several times before, I can't possibly have deleted the photos which only I am in, with my few closest friends.

So please do send me any photographs that you might want me to have!! It can be your lovely selfies for me to remember you, or those that have us in them together! Really, please send them to me at my email: wan_wen_96@hotmail.com You have no idea how much I cherish them.
Also also, I lost all the contacts in my mobile phone. (Sigh, what is wrong with me?) Now not only do I need to start collecting photographs, I need to start saving contact numbers too. Do me a favour! I don't mind if we haven't talked since x years ago but do send me a text with your name as well! My number can be found on my social network sites. :)

Gosh, I keep thinking that those are signs that I should stop looking back at the past and move forward already but they, or rather, those precious memories are those that I hold dear to me.

Can you believe it? School is starting on the coming Monday and I haven't really completed any homework!! I will not deny that I did start attempting them but.. they were all left somewhere collecting dust after the first few attempts. Furthermore, the online assignments will be due soon and I haven't opened them yet? :/ I'M SORRY TEACHERS!

Tomorrow, I will need to head toward downtown to collect my phone too. (And I was supposed to be free to meet my colleagues)

Yesterday, my dental appointment was total disappointment. :( Don't ask why.

Today, collected my edusave bursaries like finally. Extremely relieved they didn't require us to go onto the stage for the presentation! Phew! While we were getting food, a lady passed to my dad an extra apple. One of the aunties then said maybe she found my dad handsome, so she gave him one more apple. Hahaha! I was totally wondering if they were all flirting with my dad with me standing awkwardly by his side.

That's most of what happened these few days and hope to publish another post soon! If I'm not tied down with assignments that is.

Don't forget to send me photographs and your numbers!!!

"I'd tell her to speak up, tell her to shout out, talk a bit louder, be abit prouder.

Tell her she's beautiful, wonderful, everything she doesn't see." Little Me - Little Mix

Tuesday, 31Dec2013

LAST DAY OF TWO THOUSAND AND THIRTEEN!!

Before I actually start talking about things I'm grateful for for the year, which I'm almost always never am. Can I start complaining? Recently my phone screen kept flashing rapidly whenever I'm on twitter or facebook applications. Is that a sign that I should honestly quit them now? But really, it's quite rare to be able to catch a time whereby it doesn't blink at all when I'm on those apps. It's impossible to even read and select anything I want because it's like the system's jammed. At first it was only my twitter, then Facebook joined in the fun! Hmm... Hopefully my Whatsapp and Instagram don't follow suit in their bad bad footsteps. LOL. It's getting on my nerves and all I can do is to take random photos and start captioning it with my rants! :X

Well yesterday was a busy busy day but hey, I SURVIVED! And came home with a really filled stomach (AGAIN). Gosh, am I EVER going to start restricting myself? Anyways, I've received a mail regarding the details on Edusave Presentation and no matter how whoever tried hiding the fact that the letter wasn't opened before, I could tell that it was!! Okay, or maybe I'm just being paranoid as usual but yes, I don't trust them and am pretty sure it has been opened before because there're ALWAYS traces left behind that I'd notice just naturally. Make a guess: where will it be held at? Somewhere RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY HOUSE!! Yeah man, yeah man! Can you feel my joy? No? Not at all?? Frankly speaking, I'm not excited about that ceremony at all. Almost wanted to say the exact venue out though but if I really did do that, then you'll all know where I'm staying at.

Oh wait, was I supposed to be saying about things I'm grateful for? Okay, let's skip that because.... Life's too short to be grateful and I'm proud of how society has taught me well.

Another thing that other people'll probably talk about since a new year is starting: New Year Resolutions
Sorry but HELLO, do you guys actually keep them in mind and do something about it to reach the goals? Well, I certainly am not that kind of person who'll. So let's see.. It's the last day of 2013 now and I'm still:
1. Ugly
2. Short
3. Fat
4. Evil-hearted
5. Stupid
6. Unwanted

Yeap, tell me about the change from last year because I apparently can't notice any.

~ It's not bad to be pessimistic at times but please don't be stuck at that side for too long because then you'll probably find it hard to really find something worth being positive about. ~

Ohoh, and not forgetting the band practice today and what happens after. Came home stuffed with food again! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

Saturday, 28Dec2013

Here's another update from me:

The current book I'm reading now says so much about life. Its uncertainty and all, you just can't imagine how relatable or logical it all sounds. While reading that book, I felt so much like Eva who constantly relies so much on Patty and also Don. Up till where I last stopped reading, it can't stop bringing tears to my eyes because at some point I almost thought I was Eva myself. Suffered and managed to struggle through the ordeal she's been put through years before and still finding it hard to really settle down at times. Like what I said just now, she relies heavily on the closed ones around her. Without knowing they're all lying to her with the friendly and warm smiling faces of theirs. She was practically living a life of lies that people feed into her and it really touches your heart to feel or to pity her. What she doesn't know, they're all cheating on her, though showing signs of letting the cat out of the bag and being really trippy frequently. She cares for them, for their worries. She.....
Cared.

Gosh, the way I put the storyline makes it plain and boring doesn't it? Because I'm not a good writer! :( However, I really recommend all to read it. It's a good read. Drop me a message or comment or anything if you're interested.

~ Read books. Get yourself into the story. It may be a tragedy, fairytale or whatsoever, but read, and get yourself out of this world in that moment. ~